Emotional Roller Coaster

For the past couple of weeks, Mummy has tried something new, she stopped pumping breastmilk during the day. Erik was refusing the thawed breastmilk in the sippy cup for some time but was not refusing the cow's milk we send to school. So now we send Erik off with whole milk instead, which resulted, no need for breastmilk during the day.

Didn't realize that this would affect me so much. Before, I would be complaining to my friends and family that Erik just wants to nurse whenever he sees me. At the same time, the stop pumping made me realize that Erik is growing and growing so fast! The nursing times were our scheduled downtime together, whether Mummy wanted to slow down or stop whatever she was doing or not. It was our time as Mummy & Son to reconnect with each other during the hectic day.

Is that silly to think like that? To know that our scheduled times together is numbered? Don't get me wrong, Erik still nurses at 17 months when he sees me and throughout the night. It's just less often and when I'm at work and he's at school, he doesn't. The fact in stopping pumping is just another milestone that maybe Mummy wasn't ready to hit yet.